May 2, 2009

It seems like everyday brings a new "never will I forget" moment. At least it seems like I'll never forget but in the midst of all the chaos here I may just do that...forget! And only remember the really crazy moments although there seem to be many too many of those. This week there are quite a few. To start, this morning Ally showed up with a split lip. We don't really know exactly how it happened but it involved Nate, Ally, a toy and some sharing issues. Nate ended up with the toy and Ally well... a split, bleeding lip.

On to the more life threatening news... yesterday Katelynn was playing with the blind cords (the blinds were pulled up all the way.. we were cleaning the windows). I took the cords away but didn't put the blinds back down, stepped out of the room for a moment and heard Kate scream a loud help me scream I ran in and didn't see anything but her crying. I couldn't figure out what had happened. She was really upset but okay after a few minutes. Well... several hours later at the pool a friend of mine asked, "What happened to her neck?" And at that moment I saw she had semi-deep rope burn halfway around her neck and realized why Kate had been crying earlier. The blinds rope must have got caught around her neck. Thank God she is okay and I've been putting neosporen on it to help it heal. The guilt really set in heavily on me after realizing what had happened.

The other crazy moment that really sticks out clearly in my mind is when I was playing on the floor with the girls and Nate earlier this week. I was laying on my back on the floor with Ally on my stomach. Kate started to climb a chair and fell backwards, I quickly reached over to catch her and in the same moment elbowed Ally in the nose. She starts crying, her nose starts bleeding, I start crying and my heart just feels horrible for hurting my baby girl. I seriously thought I had broke her nose. She was okay and didn't end up with any bruises, thank You God!

Earlier this week I had a complete gross out moment. Surprisingly, it didn't involve any stinky diapers, those are continual and daily gross out moments. This was a complete and utterly disgusting gross out moment. I found a tick, yes a tick on Katelynn's arm. I would expect and understand on the dog or maybe Joe since they hang around outside more. But on my BABY GIRL! No! It was horribly disgusting and I cried on the inside for allowing that to happen.

That is all I can think of minus all the boogery noses, stinky diapers and dirt I clean up on an hourly bases.

Twisty Ties

All I can say is this day has been a nightmare! I'm ready for it to be over! I just pulled a twisty tie out of Ally's mouth TWICE and found three more on the floor along with a screw. Where in the world are these choking hazards coming from? I still can't figure out!! Nick is home from school with a cough, crying in his room because he chooses not to listen and make up his own rules. Nate is constantly taking down my gates and freeing the twins from confinment. Katelynn is screaming for 20 minutes at a time for who knows what reason? And that isn't even half of it!

I managed to take a shower but had to jump out early since Nate woke up from his nap and was found outside by Joe. I think I folded a towel or two in between all the craziness. Joe seems to be the only consistent kid here, he's learning and growing at home regardless of the chaos around him. Although he continues to ask if he can finish his assignments tomorrow. Where I answer with a big, fat NO!

My head is spinning just thinking of todays events. I am trying to keep my head up, focusing on God and the positives He has placed all around me. Everyday I learn my life is increasingly not my own. And I start to really think selfishly. Why in the world did God think my frazzled self could handle 3 boys and a set of twins? And I realize my life has never been my own but always His. He knows I can't do it on my own and only wants me to draw nearer to him for help. And I am realizing it everyday. I can't do it on my own but only with His help.

I just got a whif of vomit... I must go. The chaos continues...